[W A R M T H]

I’ve never felt this way before
I thought I had
But I was wrong
This is how it is now

Now it’s there and now it’s real
A heavy stone on my chest
Out of breath
Completely engulfed in darkness

Light peaks through
Can’t reach it
Can look at it
It warms my mind but not my heart

It’s not dark if I close my eyes
You’re not there when I’m not here
I don’t hear you when I listen to them
Nothing is there when I’m everywhere

Bittersweet sunbeam
Only bright if I close my eyes
They’re open now
The light’s gone bad

It’s there
And it’s so good
But I’m so bad
And I’m here too

eyes shut
and i’m sure
i can reach it
the light

and it’s almost as if I
felt the warmth on my fingertips
but I open my eyes and it’s just
an electronic heater in my cave
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