[H A P P Y]

we’re at a colorful party
music blasting for 5859 days
blending in with the mass

faces i’ve never seen before
and ones i’ll never see again
but you laugh through all of it

why’d you invite me?

i was doing perfectly fine
sleeping in my darkness
and dreaming of my own parties

you talk to a lot of kids
good friends
mostly strangers

why’d i come with you?

the clock shows 3:47
maybe the police shows up because
you were all a little too loud

as the faces leave without a trace
and nobody’s left behind (except me)
will you go home

or will you see me sitting at the edge of the stairs?

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no matter what
i’d tell you all this is just a trick
just to stop the clock
but with every letter it ticks twice as fast

it’s an addiction
to every syllable, every non-existant rhyme
i need to go on, need to go higher
that’s the kinda drug i take on MY party

it’s closing in on me now
3:48
these stairs are my home now
turns out you never bothered to look for me
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